Renewing Faith

It is interesting what has transpired in this past week. I had relationship issues with my best pals over the book, faced my own issues of not being perfect, dealt with my own anxiety, repaired relationships, got reintroduced to God through my brother, then my clients, and suddenly today God returned with a long BUZZ. In the process my physical ailments have been healing incredibly. Who would have thought when the darkness of my soul returned God was close at hand.

I am in a profession where it is important to keep oneself in balance. How can you help people in a crisis when you are in a crisis of your own. And for me the crisis doesn't only show up emotionally, but it also shows up physically - in body issues, mentally - in my own torment towards self, and spiritually - losing my connection with God. Thankfully the close of this week is bringing all the above back in harmony.

I have chosen a life that see a lot of pain. How different than the carefree days of my youth that I began to write about. How great were the days when my only stress was from a curveball that barely missed hitting me on the high school team. Now I see people everyday that are paranoid, psychotic, in a rage, depressed and in a panic - and this is before I have even made it to work!!!

I find solace in my faith, a faith that began in the heart of the Burn Ward book. To be honest, this was the driving force behind my writing the book. The experience was too big for me to hold inside. I am sorry that my ultra honesty triggered some people because I wanted to portray what was exactly going on and the motivation behind my actions. This however is no excuse for writing heresay into some of the story which opted me to revise the book this week. Trust me the revision does not effect the heart of the book, the real story that is by no means fabricated one iota.

I laugh at myself to taking myself so seriously. As my dad says, "don't sweat the small stuff, because it's all small stuff." Yes and no. Some of the small stuff can lead to incredible growth, evolution, and spiritual awakening. We are all amazing inside - trust me. I even see the glow in those with severe mental illness. As Mother Theresa said, "I get to see Christ in all his disguises".

When the book returns to the shelf (so to speak) please recommend it to a friend. It was written to give everybody hope that God does really exist - even in the most unlikely places. Trust me, if God shows up at a haunted party house, He can show up anywhere.

Peace, and happy waiting.