On the Upswing!

With all the repair work going on - with the book's quick revision, and working through relationship issues with my oldest friends (well they're not my oldest friends - they have been friends with me the longest), life is gettting back to normal. Though my life is far from normal.

I appreciate the repairing process. How horrible it must be for people that are trapped in resentments, in righteousness, and even in holding onto the label of victim. Okay, so we all have incidents in our lives - some horrible and need working through with a professional like myself, other incidents are, in the scope of things, a bruise to the EGO. But it all boils down to one thing - do I choose to feel happy. Taking it a step further - do I choose to forgive the person that hurt me? Taking it a further step - Do I choose to forgive myself?

I am choosing the high road. I choose forgiveness of myself and others. Wayne Dyer wrote about it being impossible to make ourselves feel bad enough to repair damage we've made. What is that going to do anyway? Of course I am not going to go on the exact opposite of the spectrum and feel fantastic after causing another person hurt, but beating up on myself is an option I will choose for a short time period, then I take the next step in taking the proper action steps in order to correct the situation.

It felt good to converse with one friend today after having a small scuffle recently. We have been close for far too long to let issues get in the way. How great is that? I wonder if other people allow their friendships to get heated and work to preserve it like we have. I feel this makes a strong connection since we've proven time and time again we are committed to each other. I guess over forty five years of knowing someone will do this.

I knew today was going to be great when it started with a prayer by my younger brother. I had slept over at my dad's the night before, and with my brother now a converted Christian, he is still on fire for God. During the prayer I felt it. The same buzz that happened during my meditations. This buzz I used to lead my life by. Now the buzz had been replaced by responsibility, rushing here and there, doing this and that project, and above all worry. I like and miss the buzz.

Wishing you all a glorious, buzzing day.